well today I went through the most excruciating and confusing 15 minutes of my life.
I got a two month review at my new job.
Throughout these two months I’ve tried to get comfortable with the job and learn how everything is ran. Trying my best to absorb as much as I can and asking questions.
I thought I was doing good and that I kept getting better as days went by.
Apparently not. Not even a little. Not even close.
I’m not one to accept criticism with excitement but I absorb and learn. But I’m not even sure what this was….
Just to flat out tell me “you’re not at all what I expected you to be”
To sit there and tell me that I’m pretty much not good at anything but to be on time?
To tell me that you can do what I’m supposed to do and more? and better?
I’m not going to go into details but this is not my first rodeo at a review, but I havent had anyone belittle me in such a hurtful way.
The worst is that you tell me all this now? But give me compliments on other days?
I know I made mistakes but I’m also not incompetent by any means.
I’m sorry I’m not like you.
I’m sorry I’m not meeting your high standards.
I’m sorry I haven’t worked here for so long like you and have had a lot of experience.
But as my superior you should correct me and give me constructive criticism. Not make me feel worthless.